Mine did not look this good, it just tasted better.
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Last night I behaved myself, I got to sleep on time, and even woke up before my alarm clock. I think my body is so used to being late, or deprived of sleep it woke me up, full of adrenaline, ready for the dreaded call from a manager. Instead I went back to sleep and woke up, GASP, rested.
I worked in Hudson, the store was slow. I found myself doing menial tasks, not really having much to do with being a cashier. There was this metallic cooler door, that I became very adversarial with. I used four different types of cleaners on it, and still some old grime would not come off. I was actually sweating I was scrubbing so hard. However it was a moral victory in that I tried my hardest and did see some results.
That was an overarching theme today. I had a list of things to do at work, and I did them, quicker than my manager had imagined and better too. I made my infamous phone calls to my insurance provider, got some resources and even glossed over them when I came home. I paid my student loan, and even began organizing my schedule on a calendar. I just found myself doing all sorts of things I would have otherwise ignored. I even made myself an egg salad sandwich at work, with nothing but a 99 cent pack of two hard boiled eggs and things I could find around work. I don't know about most people, but for me to actually prepare food, and eat it is sort of a big step for me. I also saved money, which is a cool bonus on top of having a healthy lunch.
An issue came up last night, of which particulars are lovingly removed for privacy purposes. However I very ardently asked people for advice I worked with, and came to a conclusion, that though I am involved in said conflict, I should not interfere. For me this takes a great amount of emotional and ethical restraint. However I think it is better for my community's health and tranquility. I am happy with my doctrine of non-interference, and hope to remain a peaceful and loving person.
After a slow commute home, a little down time I scheduled with, and a fine home-cooked meal by my brother Eben, I went to the ballet studio and received my private "ballet" lesson. I say ballet in parenthesis because it isn't about ballet as much as it is about Julia torturing my body, stretching muscles I didn't know I had, and reminding myself that dance is a hard yet rewarding art. I practiced some leaps, and jumps, which after I was panting for breath. I am thankful that dance also reminds me of why I should give up cigarettes. Julia is a kind soul who has struggles not too unlike my own and my fellowship with her is rewarding.
Now I am just typing away and looking forward to a day off from work. I have a lot of plans for my free time, and I hope I am half as constructive tomorrow as I was today.
Body - 8: Did very well with putting up with a hard day's work, ballet, and staving off fatigue long enough to get done those things I had planned to do. I also ate some food I made for myself today, I had a smoothie too, and even that homemade meal. Though the food itself was not the pinnacle of healthy eating it was a step up from what I am normally feeding myself. I think I took off points for wheezing when I was tired from hard ballet steps, and just being disappointed with not stretching as regularly as I should to make Julia's torture sessions easier on myself.
Emotion - 9: I did well last night in being direct and honest with my ex-girlfriend. I also showed a lot of restraint in not acting as my disappointment led me to, in the vague aforementioned conflict. Although I was very emotionally angry and honest about that, I also missed a point because better management of my feelings need to be in place, so that I can not obsess over being upset, and resolve issue quicker for myself.
Mind - 9: Great day today, full of being organized, getting things done, and being focused with a strong work ethic. I would say the only thing worth missing a perfect score was a little instability I felt late in the day, though it seems to be manageable, I am glad I have already made those phone calls and plan to make more tomorrow.
Overall - 8.6
After all the tip-toeing around a secretive issue I thought a little passive aggressive message was warranted. Yes... fucking cock blocker
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